Flash backs are important, they keep you grounded and remind you of the best people you have ever met in your life or are related to. Especially family, your loved ones, as they say blood is thicker than water, always. Don’t you sometimes feel blessed about the family you are born in, the people who you call your family? I am sure you do.
I think there’s this thing with vibrations, the right ones, they give you the best of inspiration to write. Coming from an experience I just went through yesterday, I want to share a short story about my grandmother. She was a beautiful soul, always loving, selfless and very accommodating. Her purpose was to spread love and feed people as many as she can, to be there for everyone who wants someone to be healed. She was a healer in a way. May it be my mother and father, her husband or her grand children, all that mattered to her was to love each one of us equally, endlessly and selflessly. And yesterday something happened which reminded me of her.
I got off from the local train on the station near to my work place and was on a usual walk to my office and suddenly this smell hit my senses. I am sure it was not of the veggie I was recalled off but it hit me home. It reminded me of “Toori Bhasar” which my grandmother used to mix with rice and feed me with her hands. Tears couldn’t stop flowing from my eyes and still do as I write this sentence. It was a hard hitting nostalgia which took me back to my childhood, my home where I actually belong, which keeps pulling me back wherever I am in the world.
As much as I age, the yearning to go back home gets stronger and yet this helpless feeling of not being able to. Recently I spent the entire long weekend home amid my family, cousins and grandfather. It was more than bliss. I cannot believe the person I have become, the struggles I have faced, the loneliness sometimes that resides within me, it has made me a better person in a way but I still miss the one I was in the past, innocent, less informed and a little more naive.
I miss being me.
I am taking part in The Write Tribe Problogger October 2017 Blogging Challenge.