Sighs. Remember the times you sigh, may it be out of despair, impatience, chaos, and all things negative? It gets to a point where you either give up your life or hopes and become silent.
While it’s much appreciated that we are always taught to be positive and hopeful in life, how much are we able to succeed? We have so much of trauma trapped in our minds that all we can do is believe in the present situation than go in the past to remember the learning. The truth is that life is not easy, and to put it out loud is something you should do often. It’s not preferable to suffer in silence. We are so bound by the after consequences of things which prevent us from expressing our hearts out.
We have to “maintain” relationships and bonds because who knows, “Kabhi bhi kaam pad sakta hai yaar.” I never understood this diplomatic act. It’s either a great bond despite not being in touch but real or just a pretentious selfish relationship because we know it’s going to help us some time in our life. I have always preferred the former. It has to be real, I can’t fake relationships or maintain it for the sake, maybe for the same reason I don’t have enough friends and those few who have put an effort to be in my life know me inside out to realize that it’s beyond selfishness, they don’t expect anything from me, they wish well for me, stay connected once in a while, ask me for my opinion/support where they need and most importantly are very honest and raw. I don’t mind if you call me up and ask for something because at this moment you need my help because if I call you my friend, I know you rely on me but I also know that your intention is not to keep up with me for a few selfish purposes.
It is really sad to see the state of relationships these days and the way things are being spread online about everything related to love, friendship and much more. There are so many generalizations and comparisons going on which are being referred to to measure if things are going right in your own bonds. I mean, seriously? Do we need a handbook before extending help or build a friendship? I think, not really.
I have seen a lot of people leaving and never coming back in my life, maybe I lost them because I was honest as fuck and not everyone can handle honesty. This world has become more of fake smiles and hypocrisy. And that’s why maybe I do not feel at home till I am literally at home because I see some selfless relationships there – Family. Growing up can easily be summed up in a few words – “When you actually realize nothing matters more than your family.” Some friends can become family too with time and you know who they are.
All I want to say is, “Life is going to be tough. You are going to break. Your heart is going to break. You are going to cry, and cry a little more, and that’s very natural. You are going to fail. You are going to feel alone. You are going to expect and get hurt. You are going to adore silence. You are going to feel like jumping off the cliff. You are going to bounce back to your couch for days at a stretch. You are going to fall hard in love. You are going to hug your parents and cry profusely. You are going to walk the road alone. You are going to face criticism. You are going to enjoy being in your skin. You are going to be disrespected. You are going to gain back your self respect. You are going to love yourself again. You are going to fall in love yet again. You are going to smile again. You are going to learn about life your own way. And that’s okay. That’s absolutely okay.”
Give it time. Give yourself some time and space. Don’t clutter your shoulders with stress. Read as much as you can. Talk as much as you want to. Stay alone if you really feel it helps you. Ask for support. Ask for love. Ask for kindness. Receive as much as you deserve. Give more than you can. It’s all going to be like this forever and you are going to fucking survive it. Go, win!
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