What made me write this post is the last night introspection before i slept. It was that empty feeling of what i really want from my Life. I started thinking about it and brood over various comforts of my Life and thought this might relate to any one of us and as i always write what i feel, i thought of sharing this as well.
As i was lying on my bed, i felt that what is it that will make me happy and contended. Is it the technological gadgets which will make me happy, which will give me a more smooth and a life of pride that i own them? Is it the job which i want soon after completing my PGDM course and the money that i will earn from that job? Is it any kind of relationship that i want to strengthen so that i get peace mentally and i can be more contended and feel good? Is it that i want my parents to be happy to have me in their life and the smile on their face my doing something good, something they might feel proud of? Have i been up to their expectations? Have i been fair enough to Life? Have i done some deeds which help me recognize that i need to do more? I couldn’t sleep properly and the thoughts were running in my mind constantly. They were like hammering me and asking a specific answer that after all what do you really want in Life? The answer was no where and it was a feeling of having nothing inspite of everything and vice-versa. This might have happened with anyone of you as well, and you might have got your answers and may be you fell asleep before you got an answer and the slog continues. All what it concluded from the thought is that everything is temporary and the role what we are playing as humans has to be done with proper responsibility and finally we need to leave this body. Sometimes the surroundings, the success of other people haunts us and make us feel that we are not that successful and that has happened with me as well, i have always been in a thought that someday i want to do something which makes everyone around me proud, whenever i see someone win in Life, i feel that moment is so precious, it leads to so many things, like personal happiness and satisfaction, family accreditation and everyone appreciates of your effort and sometimes even doing the same might not give you the same even though you deserve it. I am not contradicting my statements but this is a real truth, even two same people doing exactly the same things and achieving the same success have to lead a different life. This depends on who you have around and how much it means to people. We cannot be just happy alone and make it to the fullest, we are humans, we are bound to expectations and we need some motivation, yes it starts from self motivation but the thing is we really grow almost double when we get more recognition from some TRUE people of our life and that makes us work harder to achieve more. But however you reach no matter what heights, that void starts to increase and we start thinking more about things which make us happy. We start to focus on things and not ways to feel happy. Small things can make us feel the happiest and same way small things can distract us to feel sad to that extent as well. The decision remains to us how and what to let affect us.
I don’t know how this post might help you to think upon Life but for me it was just something i had to take out and share so that you all might relate and realize that we all are alike and even though being from wherever we are and whatever religion we are from, the basic things of life don’t change. We all are in need of Love and we have to create an atmosphere of spreading more love and healing which will unite us forever, may be.